Friday, October 30, 2009

You think you've worked it all out.. then..

Moving, admittedly pushes every wrong button with me. It hits very deep security issues, money issues, abandonment issues.. pretty much all of my issues, all at once.

Many times we're tempted to think that we're done. That we can stop trying and just coast. Sadly that ain't so. I find that it is a generational thing. I am a cusp Gen X/Gen Y -er. And most of us are slackers, generally confused, and performing way below our potential. We're not used to doing much of anything. To quote KMFDM: "We're waiting for something worth waiting for."

I'd like to take this opportunity to talk about commitment. It's a fundamental virtue. It's more than just follow through, through it entails that. It's being so dedicated to your goal that you WILL keep trying until you inevitably succeed, because damn it you are DOING this. Whatever "this" happens to be. It is also something that many folks of my generation, and anyone who is raised without responsibility lack, generally.

Commitment covers two of the virtues of the Sphinx: To Dare, and To Will. You are either on the bus, or off the bus. One side of the road or the other. Something I think was frustrating for my Dad when I was a teenage goth kid, was that I didn't really commit to much, and if you want to be a functioning adult who does..well.. anything.. you have to fucking commit to it.

How does this tie in to magic? YOU HAVE TO COMMIT! Decide what you are doing! If you want to sit and be an armchair mage, that is totally groovy. You will have a large library, and a wealth of technical info that will help others. Hell, go into publishing source materials or anthologies! You do that thing!

But if you are going to be a practicing worker of Magic you need to really commit to doing that. This isn't something to squeeze into your schedule, or dominate it to the exclusion of all else. If you are doing that you aren't making the real lifestyle change necessary. "Think like a mage!" one of my best friends and mentors would tell me. When you commit, you start to think like a Mage. It weaves spiritual practice seamlessly into your life, like brushing your teeth, or showering, or cooking dinner. When you commit to something you deepen your relationship with it to the point that it changes you, and that is the point.

It happens all the time, unconsciously, with someone who has a steady career path. Admin's know how to organize events and people, using much the same skills as a nanny. People in health care tend to see the worlds problems as disease and solutions as treatment. My dad had an Engineer's mind, and would tackle life problems as engineering problems.

When you start to think like a Mage you start to treat the world as spellwork, and working with it at that level. Not just casting a spell when needed, but seeing the flow of energy and patterns as they unfold within nature and in individual lives. All of that comes from Commitment, and Commitment means throwing away the box that an idea comes in, and actually using it. Don't keep your magic on the shelf. Commit!

If this post is overly rambly, I do apologise. I am sleep deprived, injured, and still int he midst of moving, despite all the buttons pushed and issues dredged, but I am committed. This will work. As I Will it, so mote it be.

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Saturday, October 24, 2009

Moving right along..

Going to be offline for a while as the moving process is kicking in to high gear. Painting and such is done, but now is the actual MOVING and turning things on part. At least a week without internet access for me, and a lot of time spent unpacking and rearranging.

I'd like to take this time to give a shout out to all of those spirits (this is a magical blog!)who made this possible: Demeter the Verdant for making our harvest pleantiful; Lord Ganesh for smacking down obsticles; Crow and Mama Rat for help with holding on to every penny, and finding lots of worth in ordinary and neglected things; Durga Ma and Kali Ma for giving us streangth and tenacity; Lord Shiva and Lady Parvati for keeping us sane; St. Expidite who moved along things that could be moved along, may we continue to build a strong relationship; Various spirits of wealth and good fortune whose names I do not know, but to whome I am very greatful. Lord Murugan for helping give me the fighting spirit to push when I just wanted to lay down and blanket fort. Yemeya and the spirits of our hearth for help in building it. Thallia for good council. All of our guardians who kept us from gibbering madness.

And of course, someone special in a body, the Lady of the Hearth, Deb. We couldnt have gotten our home without you, and your formidable organizational skills and tremendous willpower. Our hearth was built with your sweat and tears, and I am infinitely greatful. I Love you more than I can say.

Saturday, October 17, 2009

It's all in the approach.

I haven't posted in a while due to various life reasons, including buying our first home. (Well, condo, but still, it's ours!) Other than that, I have been so caught up in scrambling for funds, time, and energy, that I've forgotten to actually act like a magician! It's a little embarrassing, truth be told. My dayly routine has been stripped down to its bare minimum for a while now, and I've been keeping up with my studies as best I am able, but in all the comotion I forgot dear Brother RO's greatest one liner: "A situation may be out of your control, but no situation is above your influence."

Remembering that flipped a switch in my head. Something my Genius told me a long while ago came flooding back. "Everything you do is about attitude." If I am focused on every damn problem, every outpayment of cash, every long drive, every achey joint, that is all I see after a while. But if I look at every hardship, and trying situation as a puzzle to be solved, a test of my ingenuity, and a purifier of my fears, agression, and bizzare attatchments..

It helps to boil those things out from the soup that is me. Turning poison into medicine.

I hate to use the word, "purification", because it implies that those things are impure in themselves. They aren't. In the words of Paracelsus, "Tis the dosage that determines the poison." It's also the ability of the individual to utilize the substance and make it part of themself. What doesn't get used, simply gets processed out. It's holding on to that shit that you cant use that makes you rot on the inside and drives you batty.

How you approach a problem determines your relationship to that problem. The best approaches turn the problem itself to your advantage. You don't see problems, you see oppertunities.

So, as a result I've seen oppertunities to step up my practice to include myriad small practical works every day, and lo and behold business has been better! Rather seems like common sense about now.. Not useing the magical tools at your disposal to aid you in your life is a lot like having a wallet full of cash, but never buying food because you didn't find enough change on the street!

Next big plan for a line of posts is building a steady practice. It's something a lot of people have trouble with, and I want to take it apart and put it back together.

On a side note: We got the news of our house right around Mabon, just in time for the fall harvest. We worked our backsides off (especially the Hearthwitch of the house!), and we couldn't be more greatful for the fruit that we've reaped this year.

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

Your Life Force and You pt IV

The Physical Medium

Ok, We are learning how to cultivate attention. That is good. That is our fire. The force of our attention is going to be like our magnifying lense to heat our internal energetic goodies.

Now we turn to the body. If we are going to have a strong, healthy life force we need a good place to put it. A cracked cup holds no water after all.

You'll need to work on sealing the cracks in your cup. We all have them. Places of old injury, places that you carry an emotional trauma, and places that are generally unhealthy will either use up or leak life force. A good general rule to keep the cracks sealed is do something movement based. Hatha or Yantra yoga, as well as Qi Gong are all good, and highly reccomended. Your body is meant to move, these systems keep the body in good repair and keep the life force from stagnating. I do the Five Tibetan Rites, a simple series of Yantras that's found everywhere, but I first saw it in Modern Magick. I don't know if they are Indian, Tibetan, Atlantian, Martian.. I dont really care. They work. They are simple, and there is very little chance of you screwing yourself up like in some advanced practices. Though usually people get screwed up in advanced practices because they dont do the basic ones. Just sayin.

For energetically healing your meat slab, a good technique is to clear your mind as best you can, try to cultivate an attitude of kindness, compassion, everything that inspires people to be healers in the first place, and focus your attention, with that attitude to the old injury, trauma point, whatever. Don't try to do anything, just sit with your attention and compassion focusing on that spot. Your body knows what to do. Until you consciously know what to do, it's best not to fiddle with it. If you can't manage that much compassion for your self, then think of someone you Love most, and stay in that attitude, then direct your attention. Mantak Chia's lineage has a foundational exercise called the Inner Smile that is pretty much the same thing.

Bodily, we get life force mainly from the food we eat, the sun, and the air. Some say that it's the sun charges the air, and we simply get solar energy through the airy medium.

In addition to the normal nutritional value of food (it's the stuff we make more of our body out of) there is also an energetic component to it. Those subtile energies and how they influence us have a lot to do with many traditional medicinal practices, where there is very little difference between food and medicine.

To go into a in depth explanation of all of that would take many many years of study. Lets just say that the energetic quality of a food is at its peak the sooner it is picked or killed. The longer food sits the more life energy departs from it. When the life energy is mostly gone it begins to rot.. just like us.

Fresher is better. That is obvious with produce, especially if you have the oppertunity to taste.. say a peach.. that has ripened on the tree rather than on the shelf. In Doaism there are formulas for immortality (or at least longevity) that have the main thrust of diet. Usually no meat, no beans, and no starches. Just fresh fruits and vegitables, and herbal tinctures. Keep in mind these are usually used by hermits who live in monestaries or in mountians.

Meat isnt off the table, but less is more, and once again, fresher is better. In animal life, the life force gets concentrated into the blood and the sexual fluids. There are Daoist sexual practices for longevity and power that revolve mostly around the consumption of semen, the most published in the west is "The Secrets of the White Tigeress". This is, by the way, a form of sexual vampirism based around the skilled art of the blow job.

There are of course western practices made famous by Crowley and P.B. Randolph, and their assosiated groups, but fewer are devoted to longevity or immortality.

Now, I am not saying drink blood or eat raw meat. You could get pleanty of diseases, and blood is a reguritant. Your body is designed to vomit it up if you ingest too much. That said, meat killed that day is preferable to meat killed yesterday. Some authorities in the Daoist and Unani communities have said that any meal should be cooked and eaten that day, leftovers having very little energy left in them, and if they are left too long one would be absorbing befouled energy, the energy of decay into your body.

Eat as best you can. Don't go crazy, and don't over do it. Those are just some guidelines. I eat leftovers quite often.

One thing you CAN do, no matter what you eat, or when, is mentally or audibly state your intent before you eat. "I honor this food before me, life feeding on life, changing life, and engendering life. May I use all of this food to nourish my body and spirit in the best possible way. May that which I am incapable of useing find use among beings who it make nourish. May this meal be an instrument of the renewal of the world, and may all beings benifit."

Doesn't have to be so wordy. Just made that up off the top of my head. Then eat in silence, with no tv, no blackberry, no iphone, no reading, and no coversation, focusing on absorbing all you can from the food you eat, trusting your body to give what it can't use back to Nature to dispose of how She will. If you cant manage silence, simply focus your attention to physically and energetically digesting as much as you can.

We've covered the body itself, and food, now on to air. Most occultists are familiar with yogic breathing exercises termed Pranayama, usually translated as control of breath. A better translation is control of Life Force.. Prana! Prana rides on the breath, and it also is something that connects us to the life forces of all respirating life. We are constantly recycling Life Force back and forth through our little ecosystem.

A very easy way to consciously cultivate Life Force from breath is to calm your mind and first focus on breathing slowly and deeply from your belly. Cultivate that attitude of compassion, and kindness again. Now simply with intent, breathe in as much life force as you can from the air around you, on the exhalation focus on absorbing that life force into your body from your lungs to your blood, and to the rest of your body evenly, breathing out only empty air. Start with ten to fifteen breaths and record your result. Try doing this before bed, you know you are making progress when you are sleeping sounder, falling asleep easier, and waking up earlier naturally feeling pretty darn good. At first do this in seclusion, in a place that is generally peaceful and quiet. You stand a risk of picking up the mood of a place till you figure out the knack for filtering it out on your own.

And finally Sunlight. The Sun is a pretty awesome being. Without big Sol we'd not have much in the way of life on our planet. Engendering and renewing Life without pejudice, the Sun shines on the just and the unjust. If we look at the Tree of Life we see that the solar sphere, the sphere of Tifaret is a direct reflection of Unity, and below it is Yesod, the sphere of the Moon, and below that, our lovely Earth. The Sun is the great harmonizer, healer, renewer, of our solar system.

Step one is to get to know the Hypostases of the Sun. The spiritual Sun behind the Sun. All the things that our Sun does, everything that it is, is a physical manifestation of the spritual principle of Sun-ness. Sun makes the plants grow, Sun made the primordial soup boil and swirl.. gasses rise and condense.. electrical storms generate, and then.. LIFE! The Sun keeps everything moving, everything in our solar system in order through the force of its gravity.

Focus on all of that, if possible sitting out in direct sunlight. DO NOT STARE AT THE SUN! Just sit, eyes closed, feeling the sunlight. Become aware of the Sun behind the Sun, It's spiritual Reality. Focus on wrapping that warmth and life around you, letting it soak in through your skin, let it soak to the very core of you, settling and concentrating in your heart. When you are done open your eyes take a few deep breaths, thank our good friend the Sun, record your results and get on with your day.

Monday, August 17, 2009

Your Life Force and You

In reviewing my past posts I think I've been heading too far into the forest of Alchemy. It doesn't seem to be translating well as I am still a neophyte alchemist. From now on I'll just be writing as me, and trying to explain things as best I can in my own words, without a special symbol set.

I do not wish to do Alchemy, or my own research a disservice.

New post will be up tomorrow.